Selfish People

I find alot of people to be selfish, including my so called friends...I ask myself "what true friends do I have?" since alot of them are so goddamn selfish, especially on weekends & on Sundays...they think because it's the Lord's day or family day that they can go around forgetting about ME & what MY needs are...what a bunch of fucking hypocrites!!! I wish many of these selfish, subhuman idiots would just fucking die already & get the fuck away from me...

I am too giving to the people I do care about, when I can care about them & I find that alot of them are not reciprocating with me in any way, shape or form & I find them & alot of people I meet to be very self centered, needy, annoying & too full of themselves: their fucking religion being pushed in my face, in my way, their fucking family oriented values being rubbed in my face, their lack of respect for me, for what I need, for what I go through & they show absolutely no fucking gratitude for all I do for them & what I give them...it's like "why the fuck should I give period?", I find often times, it doesn't get returned & I find myself to be short changed quite too often & then when my tank is empty, I can't have energy to fill others' tanks either & I find too, I am bored with alot of people I know & am dying to find more exciting friends to hang out with & who I can relate to well...I just hate & don't relate to religious people, family oriented, close knit families, couples & to anyone who is too opposite of what I believe in & what I feel....

I ask myself far too often "Why the fuck am I on this lonely planet?" since alot of people I've known for far too long & even some of them, recently are so full of themselves, full of SHIT & are not giving of themselves period...yet they can travel across town to get something lame'n dumb for themselves & leave me out in the cold, it's like "thanks alot you selfish fucking loser, sorry to have known you"

I wish people were more giving, less selfish, less full of themselves & weren't so fucking hypocritical alot of the time...I wish more so called friends would make time for ME for a change & stop to ask how I am doing, since I am always the one who checks in with them & who asks how they are, if they need anything, etc...I am sick of onesided relationships & lack of true community & support...I hate being with a friend who is in their own world far too much & is acting like I am not in the room...I'd rather be alone for the RIGHT REASONS than be with someone for the wrong reasons...not to brag, but I am more wiser than most people I know of & I know period since alot of these fuckheads just never learn & they come crying back to me when things break loose for them, then let them, but this time, I am not gonna be stupid enough to care...just giving them back the selfishness they are giving me, after all, they had it coming to them!