Dark Humour, why I need it in my life

I have always enjoyed & loved dark humour, since I was a little kid...I love so much about it...I love hearing dirty, sick, twisted jokes, especially about people...since alot of them tend to suck most of the time....

I had such a shitty life, so therefore, dark humour is my friend & helps me cope...it is often all I have, besides my music, my alter egos, my writing, my imagination, my tv shows, my coffee...gee, if I had as many good friends as I had dvd collections, I'd be very happy with my life...as well as more money of course & better health....

I have always had this ability to make the friends I do & did have to laugh hard out loud & I love making people & my friends laugh, it makes me feel happy, needed, somewhat cared about, useful, entertaining...I love to be entertained & to entertain...it's all good!

I find that the more jokes I hear, learn & can tell, the better I feel inside, since this world is chaotic enough as it is...full of tragedy, pain, loss, bragging losers, superficial idiots, etc...I am sick to death of these fucks!!!

I love making fun of people so much, since all my life or most of my life rather, I've been hurt deeply & made fun of to the point of nearly insanity...now the flashbacks I have make me feel insane enough to not give a flying fuck about anyone or anything most of the time...so making fun of things, people, events, tragedies gives me great pleasure today!!!

I find the sicker, more twisted the jokes, the better I feel, the more validated I feel, the less alone I feel & the more connected to the twisted sense of reality I feel...I like being able to laugh at people, since I've had it with being made fun of, now it's my chance!