Embracing Secrets

I have found that keeping alot of secrets to myself was just a bad, awful thing...it ate me up inside, it denied me to be my true self...secrets have a strong way of hurting one's self & others...I have always wanted to create a safe haven for my closest friends & other soul systers like us to share our inner most secrets & for all of us to feel safe..safer than we have felt in our lives! I am a strong believer in creating things, making things happen, since deep down, I thrive on creating, being creative & I appreciate creative, moving people, readings, drawings, films, books, music, etc...

I find that society often does expect people to conform to their crappy traditional ways...I am NOT A CONFORMIST & I NEVER WILL BE for as long as I live! I am a believer in the spiritual soul connection & in getting rid of "mental/emotional toxic waste"...I have also found that alot of my awful experiences helped me to better open up to finding MY OWN WAYS to express MY inner most darkest secrets, no matter how scary they are to me...I say "fuck society & those politically correct losers/whiners, who try to stifel me & silence me for having my blunt opinions!" Thanks to those fuckheads & others like them, I am more blunt than ever & want to spill my guts onto them & at the same time, I want to educate people & open their eyes....but honestly though, I wish I was getting paid top dollar to "open their eyes & their hearts possibly"...it's not easy to "do it for free"...plus I am entitled of something positive for my good efforts to help people see their hidden truths, no matter how ugly the truth is to them...

I often ask myself "why the fuck was I put on this lonely, lousy earth if all I do is endlessly suffer, emotionally go without the positives I need to get thru a day?"...it fucking hurts...so bad that I can't describe it....all I know is that one of my biggest secrets is that I wish I had an extreme high pain tolerance on those awful days so I can help take my emotional pain away...even if it means ending up killling myself...oh well, I can accept that...

But my dream is to one day, create a society of love, warmth, acceptance & a place where we can get together & share our inner most secrets, pains, sick fantasies, joys, etc...& become a society of ONE...it hurts to see society & the world so divided by hatred, misunderstandings, racism, intolerance, ignorance & deep emotional scarring that lives in the hearts & minds of many people...I'd love to change all of that & be one day known for that & for helping people free their souls, so one day they will have peace of mind & happiness in their lives!